I’ve never had a difficult time letting go of the previous year in order to ring in a new one. This was particular true with 2018. Though it started strong, it really took a turn when I came back from Japan.
In 2018, I fell in love and out of love. I made friends and lost friends. I found a home and was forced away from it. There was so much sweet mixed in with the bitter; there were moments of overflowing happiness and crushing sadness. It’s hard to describe an entire year — 365 days is a lot of time — in so little space.
One of the most important lessons I learned in 2018 was this: follow your heart, but listen to your gut. I’m blessed with the ability to have gut feelings that are almost always right. There’s very little that can surprise me because I’m usually already anticipating the worst. This has its drawbacks, but 2018 was the first time I didn’t listen to my gut instinct and, emotionally, I paid for it. This was how I fell out of love.
I’m always thankful for the opportunity to fall in love, but I think it’s unbelievably important to listen to our mind when it’s telling us our heart is making a poor choice. And really — just listen to your gut. It isn’t always easy, but it can save your heart some pain in the long run.
Anyway, my mission in 2019 is to trust myself and my instincts more, and to draw the line when I know that enough is enough. I’m guilty of stretching myself too thin, but I want 2019 to be a year where I start to embrace understanding myself more than I do now.
In 2019, I will turn 22, see my favorite band for the third time, and (hopefully) graduate college. I want to become more financially savvy and get with the whole budget thing (because I’m really bad at those). I’d like to move back to Japan. I would also like to focus on fitness and getting to a point where I feel more confident in my body.
H is also coming back to Las Vegas, so I’ll get to see my boyfriend one more time before he returns to Japan. 🧡
My next post will likely be more of an introductory post since this feels like jumping in without testing the waters, but I hope to see all of you next time! Thanks for stopping by. またね！0